Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday! You’re 18 today! Wow, it’s been a year since you left. I sure am glad that you’re doing just fine, though I struggled painfully, left behind.

I’m sure you’re doing very well there. The weather must be great over there too. What happen to your plans on coming back, you told me once that you’d come back to see me, since I’m the nearest person to visit when you leave the airport, guess you forgot about that…
It’s alright, you forget all the time, like how you forgot my birthday last year, and how you forgot to reply the emails I sent you. It’s fine, everything’s fine with me.
Don’t ask me if I’ve met anyone yet, like you asked me the last time, because each time I meet someone, I see your face instead, and it scares me, for I know I’m just going to get hurt, just like I did in those 3 years when you were around. I hope you’re having a good life there, I wouldn’t want you to walk in and out of another girl’s life. I’m just glad that this year I don’t have to get you anything [though I wanted to send you a gift via Airmail but I’m really broke at the moment] but I know you won’t mind, because its like you said, it will just collect dust.
Guess what, I’ve started college. I’m in the college that you’re supposed to be in. But I’m really glad you’re not here. I can’t let you mess up my college life too…
When you left, I almost screwed up my SPM. It’s funny actually, because when we broke up, it was right before PMR. The lucky thing is, I became a nerd over night, gave up on everything to get the A’s that you could have gotten without doing a thing.
I’m still a doormat, a pushover, a sore loser that just can’t help doing things for people. You made me that way, for I gave you everything you wanted, and never said No!

Happy Birthday! You’re 18 today! Sadly, I still miss you. Perhaps I’ll see you one day.

Simply Complicated

Like Ryan said...Dots really do describe that something's wrong...
I don't understand people sometimes.
You do something, they get upset. You don't do anything, they get upset. So what the heck am I supposed to do??
There are 2 options in life..the easy way opr the hard way. So if you're given the easy way out...why take the hard way??
Oh well...like I said...I'll just take my losses and be on my way...

I've been tracked! lol

<<< *gasps* its Zanne













<<< Heva darling!
Its been another sleepy day for me. I slept at 4 a.m after talking to Bernard and getting my assignments done. Sigh...I should get some sleep before Heva comes after me.
Lee Mei, babe, you really have the nerve..lol. Lee Mei had nothing better to do. So we boarded an empty elevator....pressed all the buttons and visited every floor. We just couldn't stop laughing..and we blamed Ernest as the "culprit". ROFL!
The re was this woman who entered the lift, the poor woman had to take a ride all the way to the 10th floor and down again to her destination. Gosh! We're so evil! Nehehe











<<< Aww... Su Chen and Lee Mei *evilness* nehehe jk

Planet Shakers Concert [...the first but defintely not the last!]

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My first Planet Shakers Concert! Infact, it was my first concert ever! As Si Wei said, it was a life changing experience. It was just simply amazing. The band sang with such spirit. Everyone was shouting their lungs out, singing in praise to the Lord. I've never felt more accepted and free in my life. I didnt have to whisper my prayer, prevent myself from saying the Lord's name, nor did i have to look left and right before I praise him...for once in my life I was truly free! As the song 'Beautiful Saviour' played, I couldn't control myself, I begun to cry. I felt so happy, so lifted, so free! I loved every moment of the concert. Every single moment of it. I bought their latest album 'Free' and I even managed to get the band to autograph the CD. The band was really friendly. For the first time in my life, I truly felt free. Freedom in the name of Jesus. Like I said, it was my first Planet Shakers Concert...but defintely not the last.

And The He Came Along...

Meeting Peter again after so long truly was fantastic. I really miss the guy. It was really nice of him to give me a ride home. Hope Peter gets well soon.
The girls and I went shopping in Sunway. It was my first time at Carl's Jr and it was really good. I loved it. Then we shopped around for sponsors for our event. From Delifrance to Bread Story to Secret Recipe...we tried them all. Later we went shopping for a funky pink outfit in conjunction with the dress code for Orientation Nite! I managed to get a really nice pink top which costs RM49.90...I just closed one eye, took a deep breath and paid for it. The girls headed off to TGV cinemas for their job interview while I headed home. A pretty good day I'd say!

...and then I watched him go...wishing he stayed...

P.S. the guy is a fictional character

Just Doing Fine!

Celebrating Silence!

Yeah its amazing how I got that far. Today I actually understood what it meant to be silent and resigned.

I surrender today...and the days that follow.

I refuse to put up with excessive drama...in any way. I'd prefer to walk away. I don't want to put up with unwanted memories. I'd prefer to runaway.

Perhaps I care too much, perhaps I love them too much...knowing that I shouldn't. But I know at some point I really do.
I don't want to be involved in a battle of buddies. Never went through all that crap.
I'm just very fond of ZH and Heva. I just can't bear to see them upset or unwell. I don't expect anything from them. They're very pretty girls, guys could screw them up or worse some freaky girls might mess up their lives. I just can't let that happen to them. Sigh...I'm terribly fond of them.
If some stupid drama comes up and puts ZH in a horrid situation...whichever idiot did it better start wishing he/she was far away from me...
But then again I'll just pick up the pieces and be on my way...like I have to do all the time.

I'm doing just fine.

My Awesome College Mates!

That's Us! ~Suzanne, Zhao Wern, Meliza, Nikki, Angelyn and Jacinta! Darling Zhao Wern and Me
Zanne, Jacinta and Me!

Evilness ~ Jacinta and Me!

Some of the pictures during Angelyn's birthday party! @ Jack's Place in Sunway Pyramid.