Looking Back...

Today, the 20 year old me looks back on all the blog posts I've written here right up to when I turn 18 and laughs.

Gosh, I've done a lot of growing up (can't believe I wrote half of the things in here) Nehehe

Oh well, its all a learning experience. =)

O...Saya - A.R Rahman feat MIA (OST Slumdog Millionaire)

O...Saya
They can't touch me
We break off
Run so fast they can't even catch me
Been that gypsy
Touch me I'll show you tricks with my zig-zag quickly
Pick up the packs on my journey
Dogs run, they start to follow me
Have my luck, some days they suck
When you live for the buck
We get for the family

One day I wanna be a star
So I get to hang in a bar
I'll go to Vegas with the playas
Just to forget my scars

ek do teen chaar paanch chheh saat aaTH nau das gyaarah baarah terah (1-13 in Hindi)

Sweat shops have made me shifty
Like a ninja with speed I'm nifty
I hope I live 'til I'm fifty
See my city go from gritty to pretty

Quickie

3 things that I'm doing right now:

1. Waiting for Su Chen to arrive (I'm on campus, in the library)
2. Typing this quickie
3. Facebooking

3 things that has been truly fantastic this week:

1. Actors Studio Bangsar's Gala Nite! (Will blog about it soon)
2. Driving around!
3. D! (Nehehe)

3 things that menyampah betul:

1. I've not watched any good movies yet.
2. Bloody Youtube keeps telling me "This video is not availible in your country"
3. Uhhh I can't think of a number 3

It's 8.45a.m sharp. I have to go now. Hope to meet the Peter and Mathan today.

Updates!

Okay I've neglected my blog for way too long...

Let's see...

1. I passed my driving test! Actually got through the first time! *cheers* I'm officially a P license driver. I owe it all to my new buddy Koshin, who risked his life teaching me how to drive! Nehehe
2. I am bored out of my mind.
3. I've registered for my degree...finally.
4. I have yet to watch the Oscar Award Winning film, Slumdog Millionaire.
5. Maxis gave me RM18 free credit! So I called Mathew...and discovered his talent in immitating people. Hahaha
6. Oh yeah! I met Shaun Eric Ravind for the first time, met his girlfriend too. We went out for lunch, Peter joined us. Met Su Chen, Heva, Heva's mum and sis. God I miss them so much.
7. Still single, still happy. Nehehe.
8. Driving wise: Daddy says "Keep to ya lane, keep to ya lane" Mummy says "Brake, brake, BRAKE!!!"
9. Visited Si Wei who looks smexy in SJMC's hospital gown. Hahaha!
10. I can't believe I find him so attractive! Wow!
11. My column is due!
12. I'm missing Lizzie very much! =(
13. Cocktail Party!
14. I'm addicted to Milo!
15. Can't wait to start my degree. I'm terribly bored at home. Sigh...

Hahaha, so yeah. That's pretty much some of the stuff currently going on.

Unrequited Love

"A mighty pain to love it is,
And 'tis a pain that pain to miss;
But of all pains, the greatest pain
It is to love, but love in vain."

~ Abraham Crowley

The Fall

Tears stream down my face
Failure has overpowered me once again
Effort and pain, the horrid strain
All lost by few words of no gain

Tried, I have over and over
Yet this defeat I’m unable to cover
Pride has taken its dreadful fall
No joy, no faith, nothing at all

I question if this I deserve
Is this the fate I have craved
Such frustrating injustice they have reserved
Is this for me, a wonder I can’t explain

Have all the beads of sweat
Meant nothing but sheer regret
But failure has yet to have the best of me
For there’s still the will to make them see
Who someday, I can be

Unsolved

Why am I here today
Is this a test or a game
Is there a solution
For the sentence I’ve gained.

Why is it so tough to understand
Difficult to accept the ones who care
For most who sit and stare
Only few have the will to love and share.

Why is love so painful
Why are miracles so few
Why is life so daunting
Is there no fortune calling.

"Sometimes, even to live is an act of courage" ~ HoLee Ching

At The Edge

I am very tired and so are they. Won't you let me recover?

I have a million things to accomplish and them to make proud. Won't you give me strength?

I need to stand again and they need to be relieved. Won't you listen to my prayers?


I'm watching you God. I'm shouting out to you. Can't you hear me? Can't you see me?

Ruby Ruby Ruby!

Ruby took me to Sunway for lunch today! We had Kenny Rogers (one of my all time faves) paid about 16 bucks for it all...was pretty worth it I'd say.
Then the most amazing thing happened, I didn't spend a single cent after that! Ooooh Heva would be so pwoud! Ehe! (God, I sound annoying! *rolls eyes at self*)
Actually, we were in Sunway because Ruby had to cash in a cheque, so being the curious sibuk fella I observed and learnt how to deposit a cheque. My next lesson was "How to withdraw money from the ATM machine?" which I learnt shortly after lunch.
Ruby wanted to get herself a good book for the upcoming one month holiday. So we headed straight to MPH, where she grabbed a book called Inkheart (trilogy) I just stared at the thick book...I wanna buy a story book too! Tada duit bah! Ish ish! Menyampah-ness. Anyway, Ruby sure deserved her new book, she has been working really hard, studies and her part time job...she so deserved it.
We headed back to college to revise our studies after that. Besides banking in and withdrawing money, I discovered that:

1. We are all very fortunate, in some way.
2. Our choices and desires are the factors that define us
3. Si Wei rather go CC then see my face! Hmph! Geram-ness

Right now, I should be offline and "dating" my Social Psychology book. But no, I had to watch Guru and get hooked on the song Tere Bina, come online and blog...gosh I need discipline! I'm going off now.

The Four Letter Word

I'm looking for 4 letter words (besides f***)
Any ideas?

I'm 18...seriously

This post is to remind me to think of what someone dear to me has advised. For the first time I will be looking at things from a different way...his way. It makes sense but somehow I need time to think it through. I realized that even if I cut my hair short to look younger, it wouldn't really help. Suddenly, I'm thinking about what I've always wanted and when I compare and contrast it with others I discovered I'm going to be one miserable successful person. Gosh...

H, P & J

Some of the photos of my favourite trio in college. =)

Note their mischievious faces. They are so up to something.



Jaya, better known as Mathan and Heva.

Goofing around again! Ehe!

The boys' favourite past time! Luckily I was the one with the camera.

It looks like he's hugging me (well sorta is) but you have to view the next photo

SEE WHAT I MEAN! *squeals*

We love P & J. They love us too, in their own way! =)

Super Coordinators

Iwan & Shawn [The only picture I have =( ]

Last December (yes i know...its a super late blog entry) i was given the opportunity to be part of the coordinator team at AOL camp. It was a 4 day camp that trained students aged 12 to17 about learning skills and motivated them for their upcoming exams. I was the only female coordinator in a group of 6 coordinators.
My team mates (I nicknamed them till I forgot their real names):

Herss (Hershey bar)
Ridwan (Iwaaan)
Shawn Pereira (Kish)
Adam
My Secret Service Dude

For 4 days...from 8am to 5pm...we laughed, joked, competed and encouraged one another and the participants of the camp. We were each assigned a team, but being the super hyper one, I couldn’t stay still and visited every team. As the hours passed, I began to bond with the participants. Some of them needed the extra push but it was alright, that’s was what we coordinators were for.

Although I was the only girl, my fellow coordinators did not bully me, instead it was the other way around. Nehehe. When we’re not coordinating I spent my time playing Truth or Dare with Shawn and Iwan. It was…controversial but super fun!

On graduation day, I was reluctant to let them go. I was invited on stage to say a few words and I decided not to prepare anything…may every word come from my heart.
After that we took pictures (which no one has sent to me to this day) hugged, and there were some tears (not from me…cuz I really held it in) We exchanged phone numbers (some took mine, but didn’t give me theirs) Overall, it ended well, but I am definitely going to miss them.

Oh yeah, and that picture you see up there, that's the two guys that were my buddies at camp. I stole that picture from Shawn. Nehehe.

I will get more pictures soon! ...somehow...

I solemnly swear that I am Back!

I’m blogging through my N90 now and I believe I can say that I am finally making the most of its numerous features. The title of this entry says it all actually, Mel is back! Hopefully i wont be disappearing all of a sudden again. Ooooh yeah, about terminating this blog, well i really dont have the heart to do so. =)
Cheers to the continuity of bloggy!

Suh Way!

I shall begin 2009 with a post on my special buddy since I was 15!

The only guy who calls my house phone and gets away with it.

Who has fought, cried, yelled, laughed and even uhh got lah something with me.

One of my closest buddies that harasses me when I am sick bacause by some force of nature he knows I am (I think he'd probably call me when I'm in labour)

The one guy who other a certain someone, that has ever serenade me with his guitar and voice. (When you say nothing at all - Ronan Keating)

Who started calling me all sorts of names including Lil Melly and Squishy...or was that my creation.

I could go on forever but I'm not exactly feeling well (Sorry Si Wei, hope you understand)

Madam Giry Giry! Nehehe. Remember?

Thank you for always being there... reading my dying blog...driving me places and buying me Squarey for my birthday!

With Love,
Lil Mel

One Last Time

Hey there people who actually read this blog *grins at you*
I'm ending it here now. This is going to be the last post before this blog gets terminated (gosh I used the word terminated)
Anyway, I will be starting a new blog soon, probably using the same url (for convenience sake)
Or may cuz I pemalas sangat I'll just revamp it's design and all. nehehe
Entahlah, see what happens.
To everyone's eyes who viewed this blog and my heartfelt thanks goes out to you.

Much Love
Mel

The Oreo Concept

My good friend Roselyn and I were chatting last Sunday on MSN. Note that all my conversations with her are always super fun! Nehehe.

Well I took some pictures while I was in India and I wondered if I should place it as my display picture on MSN (cuz the one I currently have on is pretty dull) So I asked Rose what she thought...

(took this picture in my hotel room, super early in the morning)
I was like "Rose what do you think of this picture?"
Rose said the following, "fierce" "model-esque" "very tyra-licious" "verryyyy indian princess-y" "like Sheena, the warrior jungle queen person thingy" "beastmaster's gf...u rmbr her?"
I immediately took the picture off~!

(took this picture cuz I had nothing better to do. I've tried this before with Ash. You stand in front of a fan or air cond in full blast and take a picture...ehehe the things we do)
Then I placed this picture and asked her the same question. Rose was like, "u look like a tamil movie actress"
I was like "ZOMG! I'M SO TAKING IT OFF!"

Nehehe. Roselyn and I, we're Oreos, in other words Celup! I love the fact she's brutally honest. Well I don't think I'm going to take pictures in a very long time though.

Tripping down memory lane.

I think I should really blog more considering my previous post was only one sentence. Nehehe.
I woke up at 9a.m today and I decided that I was going to go on a little adventure. Since we moved form the apartment few years back, I never really got the chance to go through my old high school stuff. I also told myself today that I would blog today about my trip to India.

I started digging my drawers and cupboards for photo albums and old diaries. I still keep a diary now but I dont really remember what I wrote in the previous ones. I found a bottle of scrolls that Rachel gave me before she left in Form 4 to a different school. Gosh it was really cute. In one scroll she wrote "Whatever it is...forget the past and get on with the future (but don't forget me)" One scroll really made me laugh. It was about our pact when we were 14 if I'm not mistaken. It said "Don't forget! We promise to ask each other's permission before starting a new relationship" Rach, Kat (Kimberly) and I made a pact once that if we ever did fall for a guy we would seek each other's approval before we became his girlfriend. Gosh Rach I don't think you would have ever approved ANY of the guys I dated. I picked up my phone and called Rachel but I got the Maxis lady telling me I had insufficient credit. Darn that Maxis lady. Sigh...I miss you Rachel.

Then I found my diaries. I can't believe I had so many. I wrote about all sorts of things. There was one particular diary that I wrote about someone, the entire diary was about him. I also found my little box of secrets. Okay actually it was one of the boxes of secrets. Nehehe. Inside it there were dozens of quotes from the bible on little cards and picture of Jesus. There were photos of me 3 years ago and a letter that I wrote in 2005 to myself. This is the funny pert, I also found a love letter. I can't remember who was it from. It was the most lovey dovey and mushy letter I had ever recieved. I wonder why I kept it when I never found out who the sender was. Oooh and there was a little blue umbrella. I still remember...it was from the first cocktail I secretly had. Ohh and I found something else...I'd rather not mention.

After clearing my diaries, little boxes and "thing-a-magiks" the most rubbishest thing happened. I couldn't reach the cabinets on top of my cupboard. It was way too high. So I stood on my rickety chair. My phone rang, it was Gina calling from some number (as usual) I had to pick up the phone because she rarely calls and I didn't want to dissapoint her. Being the dumb nut that I am, I decided to multi task and balanced myself on my rickety chair with the phone in one hand. I began going through my things in the high cabinet while talking to Gina, as I tiptoed on my rickety chair... everything was going well until I lost my balance. The Scrabble set I was holding came crashing down with me. I think I hit my head pretty badly because it hurt so bad that I couldn't see properly...everything was blurry. I got up after a while and found my phone. Gina was still on the line, and I told her I'd call her back or something. I actually fell asleep after hanging up. I woke up after a while and I could see properly again but my head still hurts. Sleep helped I think. My knee is swollen though, so much for a good start in the new semester tomorrow. Oh well. At least I didn't break anything.

I will blog some more later. After cleaning up the mess I made.

I am Happy. =)